As my soul
the deadest part
of what was once me,
of the life
that it could have brought,
but I knew
to be set free.
on ALL the pain I caused myself
the past week.
I sat and leaked
until I became weak.
Until a better part of me–sat free.
I knew my attachment to this cycle was not like one before.
I happened to be intertwined with an energy I felt so pure
It’s mere allure may haunt me once more
Yet my antics have not been healthy
I erased the you and untied the me
That I knew deserved
I do not know if it was love
or mere intoxication
leaves my body
not in vain
But that pain
feels set free…
As the blood left my veins into the basin
combed out — of the darkest parts of my soul
I find the light again.
I am grateful for this cleansing
That amends my scars
I am calm because
I must trust what the creator will send.